Morning Pages
I am strangely resistant to morning pages this go round. I've done them off and on for years. I have volumes and volumes of written efforts to get deep, get honest and get going. This time, I just don' wanna. I'm fairly confident that if I did write them, it would be useful. And there's at least one issue that came up recently (just yesterday in fact) that had a surprisingly saddening effect on me... probably plenty to mine there. I'd rather "paint" instead of write. I realize that I might miss what's really going on.
I wonder if other's who've done AW several times wrestle with MP's.
Sometimes I've leapt into the depths. Not this time.
It always comes back to the same necessity:
go deep enough
and there is a bedrock of truth,
however hard.
May Sarton
I discovered May Sarton in the 1980's. I even added the initial "S" to my legal name in her honor. Most people think the "S" is for my father's name. He certainly did. But it wasn't.
CORE NEGATIVE BELIEFS
I used to believe four of JC's listed ones. I'm down to just one:
I will do bad work and not know it and look like a fool.
I don't feel that about my artistic endeavors any more.
I do feel it about my "real job" though.
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I'm having a hard time with the MP's as well. More along the lines of finding time to myself where I am not more interested in sleeping or blogging or anything else. I am finding that when I do them, I'm getting more out of them, however.
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I. Hate. Them. Too.
Haven't done one yet. Need someone to kick my ass into gear. Hoping that this group will do it for me. I've read the book twice and never kept up with the MP's.
So let's do it!
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Kate
I go back and forth with morning pages (and I've done AW solo several times). I'm ALWAYS glad TO HAVE DONE THEM...but I can't say I don't feel a moment of dread as I sit down to write them. :)
This time around I've decided I'll do 'em if I want and I won't if I don't and I'm not getting hung up on self-berating.
I've known of and loved reading May Sarton's work for about 30 years... she wrote on a marvelous range of topics. Her biography was fascinating too. So good to meet another admirer of her!
Knowing that morning pages were not going to work for me at the moment was one of the main reasons for not joining in with this round of the AW - though I was very tempted...
Sometimes what you resist is what you need to do, other times its a message that really something else would be a better approach - which is it for you?
This is my second time going through AW, and I am really resisting the morning pages this time, too. I don't remember them being this hard last time. I know my resistance is because I feel threatened by them, and all the things I'll say in them, and the way they'll require changes in my life, just by laying bare the truth about the way things are.
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I just started MPs today. It feels more like mourning pages to me. Looking for more insight I found your blog. Glad to know I'm not the only one struggling with it. I have agreed with myself to try them for a time...who knows where they may lead me.
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